My testimony about Yeshua

"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.

There was a man sent from God whose name was John. He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all might believe. He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light."

John 1 : 1-8

The first I can really remember of my journey home to Abba was in my childhood. I spent a lot of time by myself, we lived quite far from my school and I never had friends close by.

I was in my teens, I began to ponder whether it was possible to know the Creator if one did exist. I'd heard about the man on the Cross and later came to understand that many poor souls went that way but still something about Him drew me. I carried in my soul the deep and unhealed scars of losing my mother as a young child of seven. The impact of such a traumatic life event I believe in a way I was sheltered from only by Abba's grace. But beyond that need for healing I also had a deep and genuine interest in who made everything and whether there was any way I could find that source of life. I really had no idea what that even meant but many nights I would wander outside and sit on our driveway , the warmth of the day still in it and my heart and mind would radiate this longing up unto the One who strung the stars. They unravelled me those stars....

After school I went over to the UK and did a gap year in a place called Battle, near Hastings. A school friend and I cooked up a great idea to run away from study and take a year out adventuring through Europe before hitting the books again. We both worked as rouseabouts at posh private schools. She was at Rodean and I was placed at Battle Abbey . Our Big Year gave us a whole new understanding of the world.

We both returned to Australia to commence our undergraduate degrees. I did dual degrees law and science at the University of Queensland in St Lucia. I loved Chemistry and wondered why I hadn't gone further down that path but I understand now. My legal practice brings me into the quiet spaces of countless people's lives in a way that science could not have done. Understanding the law and how it translates into the outcomes in our lives has also helped me as I have studied the Bible over the last twenty years and the benefits of the covenant offering contained in it.

In my first year of University I was living with my Aunt and Uncle in Kenmore. I started to make connections and friends, the student party scene was easy to flow with. But at night when I lay in my bed I had a deep sense of it's just me here. No matter how many people I could surround myself with.

One afternoon I had a car accident, the afternoon sun caught me and crash! The car didn't look very good, but I walked away. What happened after that incident led me down a path of soul searching and discovery.

I love words and poetry, I love writing and receiving letters and keep letters from friends like treasured jewels in a box.

I began to read the the bible. There was something about that book, every time I picked it up and read it, I felt an energy and warmth that I had never felt before. I felt instantly comforted and not alone. I had this sense that I should do something with the Words I was reading. As if it were some kind of story that I would become a part of. I also remember this so clearly almost like it was audible, but I'm sure it was just my spirit tuning in to His "You've known about me, but now it's time to know me."

At some stage I remembered a letter I had received from a childhood friend sharing with me about how she had started a to learn how to have a relationship with the Creator, the one many of us refer to us God. I dug out her letter and re-read it.

At this stage I also began to drill into the story about the man on the Cross again, the One they claimed had come back after death. I began to excavate the story surrounding that. It seemed impossible that could happen, but if it was true what would I do with that story. But why did it happen, I had so many questions still.

My childhood friend and I reconnected. I gave her a call and I must have told her I wanted to know more about what she had told me in her letter. She introduced me to some friends who were also disciples of the man on the Cross.

I continued to read the Word which was like a spiritual umbilical chord through which living water and energy would flow to me. So many other things happened with Yeshua after that, it's not like one day I just decided to become his disciple. It all happened slowly through a process of discovery and getting to know and trust Him. I was baptised in water in the ocean and also in the Spirit fully immersed, a new language, yes the language of Heaven. So much happened in the years that followed it is simply too much to write down.

I remember when I was living in Kingaroy a few years ago I had this prompt that I should look into sabbath keeping more, so I started down that line of enquiry which opened up another discovery journey that helped me put so many more pieces of the puzzle into place. Many people now ask me if I am Jewish now. Or if I have converted.

What am I ?

I am disciple of Yeshua Messiah, the promised One that Isaiah and other prophets spoke of, the One who is and was and is to come. The One who restores all things and reconnects us with the Creator. The One I believe strung the stars in the sky and walked in the dust of the Earth , knows the journey of our humanity, fulfilled Passover and has healed me and set me free.

Yes I still have aches from this life, but they do not hold me.

His very presence healed my heart. He later healed my hands of OA.

He has taught me how to hear Him, His Word, how to tune in. He has taught me to trust Him and to live beyond fear. He has shown me that His Abba is my Abba.

I know He will provide everything I need and that He is everything I need.

There are many things that we will not fully understand on this side of the curtain but for the treasure seekers..... there is hidden gold to be discovered and if you have those deep heart / soul questions and are willing to invest time in pursuit of them you are closer than you think.

Shalom.

Cara

About Caroline:

Caroline is a lawyer, disciple, investor, writer, CrossFit enthusiast and money coach. She lives with husband Shaun and their two sons Thomas and Micah in their Hunchy hideaway in the beautiful mountains of the Sunshine Coast.

Caroline has been studying the Hebrew scriptures for twenty plus years and enjoys helping people unpack and discover for themselves the benefits of covenant relationship with Yeshua as revealed in His Word.

We look forward to connecting with you at One Million Disciples.